The Verdict

I feel so helpless. I just got back from the OB and she confirmed that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). When we (Charlie and I) first came to my current OB’s clinic she already explained to me the possible reasons why I have an irregular menstruation and one of the reasons she sited was PCOS so even before I went for my TVS I already googled PCOS and found out a lot about it. So when the doctor said it was what was found out in my TVS, I was dumbfounded. I wasn’t even able to say anything when the doctor gave me my new medication and asked if I had any questions. It was so surreal. All the while I was under the misconception that the only reason why my monthly period wasn’t so monthly was because of the medications I was taking for my Asthma (which was probably true for some cases according to the Endocrinologist I consulted before). Granted that I wasn’t asked to undergo TVS before but I would have gone through it had my former OB requested me to. Former OB said it was just that my hormones weren’t in their normal levels because of my Asthma medicines. So before I even got married (around 8 or so months) I asked my Doctor (Pulmonologist) if could stop taking my maintenance meds for Asthma and when he gave me the thumbs up, I gradually stopped taking them and just took extra care not to get allergies again. Fortunately I have not had any major attacks for the past 16 months. I was thinking, hey, I could do this, I am doing this so I would have a better chance of having a baby. So when my current OB (I only switched OBs because I want one nearer to our house now) gave me “the verdict” I was super disappointed. Even my own research indicated that it would not be as easy to conceive when you have PCOS and that there is still no specific cure, only medications that might help.

I am still optimistic. I have not lost hope though… I will take the medications religiously, will do as I was told. I will be the epitome of an ideal patient – obedient and trusting. I will continue to pray. I will enjoy my time with my husband. I will relax and let things be. I will do all these because I don’t want pressure nor stress to factor in on the already complicated situation I am in.

Visiting the In-Laws

Yesterday, I went on Leave from work to have my TVS (ultrasound). I went to USTH at around 9 in the morning and finished the ultrasound at around 11:30 am. Since I was in the vicinity of my Brother-in-law's house where my Parents-in-law are currently staying (while Tata, my father-in-law is undergoing therapy), I decided to pay them a visit. It's good to see that Tata's condition is improving (albeit slowly... but at least surely). Nana (my mother-in-law) and I exchanged kwentos for a while (medyo hirap magtagalog si Nana, she mainly speaks in Ilocano and the occassional English). She told me that they're going to stay here in manila until January next year so they'll be experiencing their first Manila Christmas. I'm looking forward to this year's christmas also (more so than the past ones) because it's my first as Charlie's wife.

Note to self: Buy Tata some ready to eat (storable) merienda and Nana a couple of house dresses.

Feeling Lucky

I know I've always been fortunate when it comes to the people who love and take care of me... My parents for example have almost always given me everything I needed or wanted, even my grandparents, aunts and uncles have always given priority to my requests or "lambing". But the most recent person who has given me such attention is Charlie...

Lately, I realize that I am truly lucky to have been able to find someone like him... I may not always appreciate the things that he does for me, I may even get irritated with his shortcomings sometimes but it all boils down to one thing... and that is HE LOVES ME! and I in return love him too... with everything that I have experienced lately, all the lab tests and whatnot, I want him to know that I may not be the most demonstrative person but my love for him increases everyday. As we both discover little (or big) things about each other, I will continue to appreciate him for what he is and most especially for his patience with me and his understanding of a novice wife.

Having said that... here goes another kwento:

Yesterday, I had another appointment with my OB. Charlie, my ever-loving husband went with me (the Doctor only asked me to bring my hubby's CBC and urinalysis but not necessarily bring the hubby also, but Charlie insisted that he come with me). Feeling elated that Charlie wanted to come, I cooked his favorite breakfast: Fried rice, danggit and sunny-side ups.

and so after the hearty breakfast, we finished several chores at the house first before walking to the hospital (yes, we are fortunate enough to get a house within walking distance from a hospital, a church and a wet market). When we got there, Charlie was the only man there but if he felt uncomfortable he didn't show any indications that he was. During the consultation with the doctor, he was super-interested with what the Doctor was saying, he even asked a couple of questions and answered the Doctor's queries without qualms. He even offered to have a semen analysis but the Doctor said that she wants to concentrate first on the well-being of my reproductive organ since most likely, my hormones are still adjusting to the stoppage of my steroid intake (due to Asthma). Besides, my menstrual cycle has always been out of whack, so... Anyways, this morning I had another set of Blood chem (FBS, GOLDT2, Prolactin, T3, T4 & TSH) and tomorrow morning I have to undergo Transvaginal Ultrasound. Good thing, I was able to come to work today kasi tomorrow, medyo malabo kasi I don't know what time matapos yung ultrasound sa UST plus slightly malayo na from work yun kaya baka di na lang ako pasok. Haaaay! Sana everything turns out ok...

Waiting in Vain

I guess it was just not our time... the pregnancy test turned out negative, the doctor ordered for me to undergo another set of lab tests, I got my cbc and urinalysis results yesterday, my OB would just have to read it on Sunday (September 17) together with Charlie's. Of course I was disappointed, I really was hoping that we'll have our little angel soon but I guess we just have to wait a little more... Like they say, the best things are worth waiting for naman. What's good about all this is that my hubby as supportive as can be. He's not making any noise about the fact that my OB wants his lab tests done also, nor is he complaining about going with me to the OB on Sunday. Even though I had one of my silent tantrums last night he just hugged me until I fell asleep.... I just love this man, he's so adorably patient and supportive of me that I can't stay in a bad mood. He keeps uplifting my spirits and always says the right words at the right time... I love you honey, sana di ka magbago, at higit sa lahat sana di maubos ang pasensya mo sa makulit at sumpungin mong asawa!
To all of those who are praying for us to have a baby soon, just keep on praying for us... Thank you sa lahat ng concern at advice. I promise I will always keep you posted.

Updates!

I had quite a busy week so I didn't really have the time to post anything so here goes a summary of several events that happened:


September 7 - CHARLIE's Birthday!

There was no big celebration or anything, in fact we both had to work that day so we just had dinner at home. The night before I patiently awaited for midnight to come so I could be the first to greet him... Of course he fell asleep way before 12 but I kissed him anyway and whispered "Happy Birthday honey" and he partially opened his eyes, kissed me back and said "Talagang happy ang birthday ko hon, kasi magkasama na tayo e". Yun lang, no biggie but my heart melted anyway... hehehe! Love You Honey!


September 9 - Sleep-Over

My sisters and I are very close, and when I still lived with them at my parents house we usually spend the weekend lazing in our room watching movie after while munching an assortment of junk food. I guess we all miss doing that so they decided to visit me and sleep over so we could do that again. We watched several DVDs and was able to finish a whole season of Gilmore Girls (also on DVD) and was able to consume quite a number of Cheese Clubs, Piatos, etc. I missed doing things for them so I tried to make it up by cooking pancakes for breakfast the next day and then for lunch I cooked Mae's (my baby sister and Maid-of-Honor) favorite Chicken Curry!

September 10 - OB Appointment (CANCELLED)

I often dread going to the doctor and this appointment I guess was extra hard for me to go to since I have had 2 false alarms before when I thought I was pregnant but was mistaken... But this time, the Doctor was the one who cancelled on me... Hehehe! She had to perform an emergency CS so my appointment was postponed for September 12 (TODAY!)

September 12 - OB Appointment

I have to leave work early today... well, not early actually... just earlier than usual for my Doctor's appointment at 5pm. Hmmm.... sana I would have something exciting to post tomorrow about it!

Bits and Pieces

Over the weekend, I went through a roller coaster of emotions...

Let me get over the "nakakainis" part first... Ok so we live in an apartment, so obviously may kadikit yung house namin. There are four units in this apartment building and we all share one gate. My hubby and I live in apartment B, the second unit from the gate. Originally we were looking at Apartment A kaya lang Charlie and I decided not to get it na lang because It was bigger than the three other units (which naturally makes it cost more), and since there would be just the two of us (Charlie's cousin is just temporarily staying with us while undergoing training for work and would probably move out by November) it would be impractical if we got a big place. Besides, we didn't want the house nearest to the gate because we knew we would always be bothered with the comings and goings of tricycles, vendors and the like. So anyway, For about a month and a half now, apartment A is being occupied a family of 5 (a couple a bit older than me and charlie, and their three kids - all boys, with ages ranging from 5-10). Now I know boys can be a bit boisterous but hey, I have cousins and nephews too but let me tell you... even my most hyperactive nephew gets tired and stays quiet once in a while but these boys... they're like the energizer bunny! Times three! But I still keep my cool, whenever they get too loud or their mom's incessant yelling asking her kids to stop whatever it is they are up to for the moment gets on my nerves, I just go to my room and count to ten then read a book or do anything to take my mind off the noise. But last Saturday, it got worse! Way Worse! I think they were having a celebration of some kind because they had a lot of visitors so at first i didn't really mind the noise they were creating with their loud "kwentuhan" and even louder music. I went about my usual Saturday chores like cleaning the house and doing the laundry. While I was hanging the last pieces of clothes I have just washed, I noticed that there was smoke coming from our neighbor’s area so I followed the direction where the smoke was coming from and there, in front of their house I saw one of those charcoal-powered stoves. Now I cannot, for the life of me, understand why they would place such a contraption there when there is a bigger space on the side of their unit, nearer the gate, when they know I was doing the laundry and their smoke-producing stove would of course generate smoke going towards the direction of the other three units. But still, I didn’t say anything and just went about my business of hanging the newly-washed clothes. I took out two of our electric fans and pointed it in such a way that the smoke would be “shooed” away from my laundry. Then as I was about to go on an afternoon siesta (this was around 3pm already) after doing other household chores… they started their videoke session! Talk about bad timing! So anyway, I still didn’t want to play the “kontrabida” to whatever it is that they’re celebrating so I just closed my windows and doors and attempted to sleep (to no avail). Their noise barrage lasted until around 10pm that night. The next morning, Sunday, Charlie and I got a “rude awakening” so to speak. I guess their visitors slept over because there were still quite a number of people there, and they were watching this war movie at seven in the morning! In full volume! With matching reactions from the audience! I mean, gosh! I thought a bomb went off or something! So hubby and I had no choice but wake up early (we usually sleep in until 10am on Sundays and go to church in the evening) and get out of the house ASAP! We spent the day at the mall, just window shopping and trying out new food joints (we went to three different restaurants! Nakakagutom pala mag-mall ng walang binibili, hehehe!). When we finally came home at around 9pm that night, I guess our noisy neighbors ran out of steam (at last!) and stayed quiet the rest of the night.

Now the good part… What I really liked about what happened was that Charlie and I got to go on a “date” again. And what’s more it got us talking about buying a house of our own (far from our noisy, insensitive neighbors). We even talked to a real estate agent that same Sunday afternoon (we found one at the mall) and scheduled a tripping for next weekend. I’m so excited! We are making the first step to owning our own home! I know hindi naman agad-agad kami makakalipat but just the thought makes me giddy!

Anyways, ang haba na pala ng post na ito… saka na lang ulit yung ibang kwento. Back to work muna ako!

Nurse for a Day

I wasn't able to go to work yesterday because I had to play nurse to Charlie who had the 24-hour bug (I think!) Kasi ba naman pag-uwi niya ng wednesday ng gabi nilalagnat na tapos Thursday morning, when I turned off the alarm and was about to wake him up super init na niya so I got the thermometer and when I took his tempreture grabe 40.3... Nataranta tuloy ako, I immediately went to the kitchen and boiled water tapos I gave him a sponge bath. Nagpoprotesta pa nga si hubby, sabi nya ok lang daw siya... papasok pa daw sa work?! Kaloka... Anyways, I convinced him not to go to work anymore kasi hindi na nga niya mamulat yung mata niya saka his face was red na (parang face niya pag nakainom ng madami). So yun nga, I texted my officemate na hindi ako papasok kasi I have to take care of Charlie.

Buti na lang I decided not to go to work kasi baka hindi na kumain ng lunch at uminom ng gamot yung pasyente ko... Slightly matigas ang ulo ng lolo mo, parang 4 years old ang drama niya kahapon. Inimagine ko tuloy kung ga'no kakulit ang magiging mga chikiting namin kung mana sa kanya (hehehe! E pano kung mana sa akin? E di mataray!). Thank God na nag-subside na yung fever niya nung bandang hapon (i-sponge bath mo ba naman with warm water and alcohol every four hours e...) tapos medyo magana na siya kumain nung dinner at pareho na kami nakapasok today! Ay grabe, 1 day lang mag-absent tambak agad ang work ko! Pero ok lang, at least ok na si hubby.

Oh! and one more good news... na-repair na yung landline namin sa apartment! Finally! Sus, kailangan pala, i-follow up mo every other day for two weeks bago ka puntahan ng repairman ng PLDT! Anyways, buti na lang gawa na ang phone namin para pwede ulit makipagchikahan sa mga sisters ko at kay Mommy kahit every night. Hay naku... hanggang dito na lang muna ang kwento ko kasi I still have to finish a couple of reports before going home.